I think that I am so tired that I can't sleep. I know that sounds a little strange but it happens to me sometimes.I still feel blah and I am trying to get out of this funk that's been hanging over me. I can't seem to make the most out of all the hours in a day. Sleep too late, laze around the house with Andy, don't get my piles of laundry done, don't wash all the dishes, waste time on facebook, look up random wedding shit. Go into work and be half way productive. Sigh.......................
We got up at the crack of noon today and I made brunch. Pancakes, eggs, bacon, and OJ. We were eating and Andy was begging and Dwayne starts to talk about how I know he has a hard time not being able to control the future and he has struggled with it for quite some time. But he wants to take control of the future with me. He asked would I do that and I said of course honey! Then he got down on his knee, pulled out the ring, and asked me to marry him. Of course I said yes. Yay! A proposal over pancakes in our new home.
I really should be working on my paper right now.... but I don't much feel like it. I am not really motivated to be in school right now period. I know that in the end it will pay off for me but still I hate all the extra work involved. My job offers enough of that for me at the time. I am feeling a little stressed out and I would really like to go get a massage..... yummy!
So for about the last two weeks I have felt so very blah..... I have been up half the night and sleeping half the day. I have not been as productive as I know I could be and I just don't really know exactly why?! With January behind me I now am thinking about how far I have come along on my "resolutions" and I now feel like it is time to re-think and revise them just a little bit. I have been doing so-so on Weight Watchers having lost 3 lbs. the first week but then I did not go to the meeting last week due to a work obligation. Which I guess was a good thing because my eating was not the best. I have been back on track this past week and I am looking forward to showing progress when I weigh in on Tuesday. My goal for myself is to loose at least 26 lbs. by my 26th birthday. That means I need to loose about a pound a week. That's very doable. Onto other subjects.... I have been thinking about a five year plan. So far I have figured out a few things. I should be done with my masters degree in May 2011. I plan on staying at my current job until then so that I can have a solid resume because right now it looks kinda raggedy (5 jobs in 2007!!!). I want just this one job for 2008 and beyond. I really want to concentrate on paying down my student loan debt by at least 50% in the next 5 years and save a lot of money for future endeavors. Dwayne and I have discussed moving to North Carolina and I think that will be a good idea. So that is the plan for after I graduate. I am going to sell the condo (hopefully) and we will buy our dream home that we will start our family in. It is quite overwhelming to think about all of this because that means in 5 years or so I will be married and having babies and in another state! Am I really a grown up now?!! I guess so. Wow! When did all of that happen....?
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