Tuesday, April 29, 2008

Counting my blessings

A loving fiance
A great family
Great friends, that have been in my life for 10-15 years!
Andy Dawg!!!!
A house that I own, even if it's a small one
A little back yard to grow flowers, veggies, and herbs
A job, although my hours have been cut, that pays the bills
Food on my table
Good health
A car to get me around

Getting to the year mark!

In just a few days I can tell people that I am getting married in a year (less than one). Wow! I see so many wonderful changes coming my way and I am ready to embrace it. I have been thinking about how to handle the whole job situation and this might be all a test for me. Maybe I need to hang in there longer to see exactly what is in it for me. I am making progress slowly but surely on improving things.
On other topics... I am very proud of myself for working out today. I got in 30 minutes of cardio, which is a start!

Monday, April 28, 2008

What a weekend!

I feel like I never got a chance to really rest. Went out Friday night, got in at 3:00 am, went to work at 9:00 the next morning, got off at 2:00, went home to shower and change, drove to my parents house for my mom's spa party, came back home around 7:00. Cleaned and did stuff around the house, had a major allergy attack, sweetie got there around 11:30, went to bed after taking 2 benadryl, didn't get to enjoy any time with sweetie, got up the next morning and went back to work from 11-3:30, grocery shopped, cleaned, had Peachez over to discuss DJ'ing the wedding, cooked dinner, did laundry, got a little bit of quality time with sweetie and went to bed!

Friday, April 25, 2008

Going out

I'm about to start getting ready for the white party and I am thinking about how going out is not really what it used to be. I am off the market now so I don't really see a reason to display all the goods.

sitting in the food court

I just went shopping for an outfit for the all white party tonite. I did not want to go but I am doing it for my friend. This 10 dollar party quickly turned into 100 plus... I'm so tired right now. I feel to0 old to only be 25!

Thursday, April 24, 2008


Don't really know what to title this one...
I am done with the school year!! Yay!!
I am thinking about this weight loss journey that I am on as I look at my new issue of "Self" magazine. Every woman's magazine that I read always has a cover story that touts how someone can loose 5, 10, 15, 20 pounds in 1, 2, 3, 4 weeks! By eating weird limiting diets or working out like a mad woman. I really want to loose weight but I love to eat! And food makes me happy.
When I think back to when I lost 30 pound or so, back in 2004, I realize that what I did back then is harder for me to do now. I worked out in a rural area and would eat lean cuisines every day for lunch. The temptation to go out and eat was simply not there because there was nothing around. But now I am surrounded by lunch carts, deli's, pizza joints, and coffee houses. And almost every day I give in to temptation. I think that I am getting better slowly but surely. I have made my own breakfast at least once this week and ate lunch from home too. At least its a start!

Tuesday, April 22, 2008


Still blogging instead of writing my paper :-) Actually I have three of nine pages complete and both genograms drawn so I have gotten somewhere. I need to take some time to figure out why I am the most unmotivated grad student on the face of the earth. I already made the decision to take a break from school but after the break then what? I kinda have the feeling that by time I figure out what I am doing with myself me and my future husband will already be in the process of starting a family. Speaking of which, in planning for the future I am a little torn between waiting a few years to have a baby or doing it sooner. Sometimes when I am around little ones I get the longing to start a family within the next three years instead of five. But in talking to people who have experience with the whole marriage/kid thing, the vote is always to wait a little while. My logical mind says to wait but the whole girly emotional mind says "awwww cute babies!"

Uhhhhhh yeah

I am supposed to be typing my last paper for the semester and I really don't feel motivation to start on it. Instead I want to watch the primary results from PA (GOBAMA!!!) and read my magazines. I really have an obsession with magazines I think. I read way too many of them :-) Well, anyways, I am trying to make the most out of the time that I have at my job. I am not quite sure if this job that I have an interview for on Thursday is for me. I mean I like the money that it would bring but I gotta make my move based on more than just $$$. And I feel a bit more hopeful about having success in my current position. I just gotta push past my current comfort levels. I admit this about myself, I tend to quit when things get hard instead of pushing through. It is a quality that I really would like to work on. Ok, let me stop bojangling and work on this paper.

Monday, April 21, 2008

I want to be....

that woman who has the banging figure, that woman who dresses nicely with beautiful hair, nails, and makeup, that woman who is always organized with a clean house, that woman who can get up in the morning and make the most out of each day regardless of what obstacles stand in her way, that woman who maintains meaningful connections with her friends, that woman who keeps her man satisfied physically, mentally, spirituality, and emotionally, that woman who knows when to spend and when to save, that woman who will make you smile or offer you great advice, that woman who is successful in all of her professional endeavors. So which one of these qualities will I strive for today....?

Saturday, April 19, 2008

I'm too lazy

And that's a problem. It's not like I don't have things to do that should be filling my time so why I am just sitting here on the computer? It's because I am lazy. Yeah.... gotta fix that. Ok, I'll get up and do something :-)

Tuesday, April 15, 2008

Once again here I am....

Writing a paper the night before it's due. I don't quite understand why I always do this. I know that I have got to get better about it. Right now I am trying to figure out if it is worth it to go to school next semester to get the certificate in non-profit management or if I should just put it off for a year while we plan the wedding. There are definitely other areas of my life that could use some TLC and attention so I will give it some thought. I am glad that I had a pretty productive day at work though. I overslept a bit but once I got there I cranked out a really good document that has all the information about where I am at in different areas. At first all of the rejection that I have been getting lately was really getting to me and I had a mini-breakdown. I even ate lunch outside of the office and looked at a magazine to try to take my mind off of things. But when I set foot back into the office I shed a few tears because I was overwhelmed by it all. Yesterday I saw a note to my boss from his boss that told him if I can't grow the Richmond area then he needs to find someone who will. Well, I am trying! I know that I am up against a lot of things and yet I continue to plug along. Right now it is a tough time, but I will keep going until it's time to move on. Alrighty, let me get to this paper. I am SOOOO ready for this semester to end. Just three more weeks. WHOOOO - HOOOO!!!!

Monday, April 14, 2008

Better today

So today I actually made it to work within 30 minutes of my target time, YES! That is a start, considering the temptation to sleep in was a great as ever since I only got about 5 hours of sleep. But I still feel energized today. I have been a wee bit slack though. I have a list of things to get done and I have only really checked off one. But I have a few more hours. So I can still get it all done. And then its on to working on my paper for the reaminder of the day. I will finish up the semester strong.

Sunday, April 13, 2008

Ummmm yeah......

I am sooooo unproductive. And it makes no sense. I have not done much for my paper this weekend, knowing full well it is due on Wednesday. Every week I try to start fresh and get better about everything. This time I am going to actually do it. I will be better about my school work and I will finish the semester out strongly. I only have three more classes to go. I will get up on time like I should and be productive. I will track my points for Weight Wathchers and see success with my weight loss. I will feel good and energized and be in a happy mood. Great health, wealth, and success is mine! I am claiming the good things.

Thursday, April 10, 2008

can't stop eating!

I have this clear vision of what I want to look like and how I want to feel but yet when it comes time to put it into action... Sigh... I just don't know. Food is so good and I do realize that I eat out of boredum. I just need to get it together

Tuesday, April 1, 2008

Wide awake yet again

I am so dumb sometimes. Like an ass I drank a jamoca shake at like 4:30 this afternoon and I really think that it is keeping me up. I don't think I will be sleeping tonight. Damn damn damn