All this wedding stuff is not worth they hype. I mean I am beginning to wonder why the hell am I even willing to pony up so much money for this one day event. Last night I said to D let's slash the wedding guest list to 50 people but honestly that would hurt a lot of peoples feelings. And then I thought about just eloping but a big part of me wants the actual wedding with everyone that we love there. Wedding planning can suck at times.
I think I am having a not so ideal week, but then again last week felt that way too. I am trying to be positive about things but I think I am loosing the battle lately. I'm stressed! My face is broke out like a teenager. I got this weird allergic reaction (to what? IDK!) on my mouth. I'm not feeling "it" this week. I'm.... just...not....that.....into....it. Yep, I wanna crawl back into bed and sleep for the remainder of the week.
I kinda feel that way right now. D is still struggling to get a job but of course the bills keep coming. I am having a bit of a hard time adjusting to dual roles at my job. I really want to just do one of the jobs, but I think I am being tested by my boss before I can be rewarded with the position that I truly want. I really would like to fast forward just a bit past this sucky part and be in a more comfortable place. I suppose that growth is not always easy, I am just not having the easiest time understanding it.
After talking all weekend, D and I decided that we need to stay in the condo for another couple of years in order to really be prepared to move onto something bigger and better in the future. Sure we coulda got a bigger house that would fit our lives now but then he brought up the fact that we need at least 4 bedrooms to have space for the children we plan on having. So, we are trying to make the best out of our small space. The spare room has basically been turned into D's closet, with rolling racks and cubes filled with drawers. One day in the not too distant future we will have actual closet space...
After living in my condo for a whopping 9 months, I have decided that it's much to small for me. Esp. with my fiance now living with me. I have contacted a real estate agent and I am about to embark of this wonderful journey of selling and buying real estate. So, know I am working on cleaning this little place till it shines like a penny. I have started with the kitchen and that by itself is taking forever. I had to clean the stove and oven, mop the floor, polish the sink, blah blah blah. But this is a good weekend to take on these domestic responsibilities since Hannah will be blowing through these parts and dumping tons of rain on us. Alrighty, back to cleaning.... joy.
Why the hell does any and everything having to do with a wedding cost a bajillion dollars? I always thought that I would not be the type of person to put a wedding on credit and be paying for it for years after the "big day" but now I find myself 9 months away from the wedding and really having that to be the only option. My parents are giving us a nice portion of the budget but there are still thousands (thousands!) to be covered after thier contribution. I mean the wedding is about to cost what a new car would! That's just bananas. But it's difficult to stop this train once it's on the tracks. I envisioned a certain look and feel for the ceremony and the reception and now to make it come to life I have to pay, dearly :-( I can't think about it too much cause it's just a wee bit overwhelming.
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